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What Is Our Purpose

What is our purpose here on earth? It is a question I often ponder, never getting the concise, clear answer I am looking for. Possibly, one day it will be revealed to me in a manner I can understand.

We are all given gifts when we are born. These internal gifts help us make choices about how we are going to live our lives. We feel drawn or attracted to certain vocations. For example, I have always been drawn to providing service to others. It explains why I was attracted to the military and law enforcement.

The Big Question: What Is Our Purpose

Even though I was given the gift of service, I don’t believe it is my purpose here. I saw a lot of the darker side of life during my career. The things I experienced made me angry and judgmental. It was after I retired that I found peace.

I wrote the paragraphs above at the beginning of May. In my post last week, I wrote about experiencing resistance and how it came in the form of writer’s block. Today, the question in my mind is: Am I being pointed in another direction?

When I experience these times of resistance, I believe it means I am on the right track. It is my ego’s way of keeping me from doing something I’m supposed to do. My consciousness is telling me to write, and my ego is resisting. It is this battle that creates the void and silence in my mind. Therefore, when I can’t write, I read.

The Answer To Our Purpose

It was through reading that I not only overcame the resistance, but I believe I found the answer to my question; what is our purpose? My wife began telling me about a fascinating book she was reading, Many Lives, Many Masters by Brian L. Weiss M. D. She read some passages from the book and I immediately understood and connected with what she was saying.

In 1980, Dr. Weiss met a patient, Catherine, who changed his life. Catherine suffered from panic attacks, anxiety, and fear. After 18 months of psychotherapy, Catherine agreed to undergo hypnosis to uncover painful and repressed memories. While hypnotized, she began describing past lives in detail. Her symptoms began disappearing as she recounted more and more past lives.

Neither Dr. Weiss nor Catherine believed in past lives and reincarnation before she went under hypnotherapy. While reading the book, it was revealed to me not only my purpose but that everyone’s purpose on earth is to learn to love during their lifetime. We must love everyone unconditionally. Humans have yet to learn this valuable lesson.

Spiritual Beings

We are spiritual beings in the human body. Our physical bodies carry the soul and will someday die; they have an expiration date. Our soul is energy and therefore, eternal. It is made from the universe and will return after our physical body stops working.

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I feel inspired to fulfill my purpose on earth. What am I supposed to learn here during this lifetime? All my readings say we must learn to love unconditionally, everyone and everything while we are here.

There Is Much More

I believe there is much more to this being our ultimate goal. Each of us must learn to overcome our past and the faults we acquired during those times. We must conquer our fears and anxieties, look deep inside ourselves and see what is holding us back.

Are you thinking about how friends and family will react to what you have chosen to do? Do you feel as if you need approval from outside sources? You might even crave approval from anyone.

It is exactly how I was feeling. Before I made a decision, I would picture the reaction people close to me would have to my decision. Then I made one important change; I started listening to my heart. I can feel in my heart if my choices are good and pure. If my heart tells me that my choices are good, God has approved them. That is all the approval that you or I need.

Learn To Love

God loves each one of us unconditionally and only asks that we learn to do the same. If everyone on earth learns to love unconditionally, all killing, maiming, and wars will cease. We have the power to change the world; all we have to do is start using it. Start with yourself and teach one other person the art of loving unconditionally.

Cites

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Weiss, Brian L. Many Lives, Many Masters the True Story of a Prominent Psychiatrist, His Young Patient, and the Past-Life Therapy That Changed Both of Their Lives. Piatkus, 2020.

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A Bad Case Of Writer’s Block

I haven’t been around lately because I have a bad case of writer’s block. Normally, I like to write and post on a regular schedule, but as of late, I cannot come up with the content to write about. Others have suggested that I re-purpose some of my old posts. When I think of doing that, I don’t get a good feeling about it, so I have scratched that option.

Before, I would get inspiration from anywhere (I am assuming like most of you). It could come from reading a book in one line in that book would turn into a post. Seeing someone on the street that mentioned something in passing; could turn into a post. Many times, inspiration would hit me while exercising, and I would write an article in my head, later transferring it to paper.

After discussing this issue with Cindy Georgakas of uniquelyfitblog.wordpress.com, she suggested writing about what I am experiencing. So here I am, and I will try to describe what I’m feeling the best I can. Please be aware that when I talk about God, I am talking about Infinite Intelligence, the Great Creator, the Universe, whatever word you use. I believe they were all talking about the same God, even if we come from different religions.

Before May, writing my blog posts was easy for me. I wake early, and the first thing I do is drink 24 ounces of water. While drinking, a thought enters my mind, and before I know it, I’m writing the next post. After I returned from my daughter’s graduation (yay Lindsey), the ideas stopped coming. I thought it would only last a couple of days, and I quickly resumed my daily routine.

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After giving thanks, meditation, and prayer, I sat down and opened my journal. Nothing came to me except a bad case of writer’s block. I just stared at the blank paper waiting to be filled with words. Since I have learned to enjoy writing, I couldn’t comprehend what was happening. Days turned into weeks; still no inspiration.

One of the confusing issues I have is that everything else in my life is going well. I am healthy, happy, and feel closer to God than ever before. I am reading more than I ever have. In contrast with my blog, the fictional novel I’m working on is almost writing itself. Ideas flow to me when I’m writing fiction. The scenes play out in my head like a movie. I then transition to writing my blog, and the ideas stop. Having a bad case of writer’s block is very frustrating.

Because I don’t know exactly what is happening, I have become inundated with questions. Is God pointing me in another direction? Am I supposed to put more effort into my other endeavors? Why is this resistance happening right now? Is the timing significant? How long will it last?

I know that God will always point me in the right direction. God is always taking care of me even when I stayed a good distance from Him. The answer will come sooner or later, in Divine timing. I trust and have complete faith.

If anyone has any suggestions, I am open and ready to receive them. I truly appreciate everyone who takes the time to visit my site and comment. Once again, thank you, Cindy. It feels good to be publishing a post once more.

Cites

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Harold The King of Fear and Self-Doubt

It has been a while since I last posted, and, unbeknownst to me, I guess I needed a break. I have been dealing with resistance, and I could not come up with anything to write. I am still drawing a blank, therefore, I am posting about my friend Harold, the King of fear and self-doubt.

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Do You Have A Harold The King of Fear and Self-Doubt?

If you have read my story, you know that I lived with fear and self-doubt for 47 years. It was my inner turmoil despite all the achievements I had made in my life. It took battling cancer to begin to be myself, a confident and fearless man.

When I was younger, I focused on the future. The future is filled with anxiety and doubt. It caused me to look at my past which was filled with self-doubt. Everyone was better than me. My life, viewed from the outside, didn’t match what was going on in my head.

The Now

Today, I focus on what is happening now. I look inside myself and feel what’s going on. I ask myself, how am I feeling right now? If I experience something negative, I want to know how my body is feeling. What does my reaction feel like? Is my heart beating faster? Does my stomach feel like it’s in knots?

Focusing on the NOW has helped me control and eliminate fear and self-doubt. I understand that those thoughts don’t come for me. They come from other sources. For example, a baseball/softball player walks to the plate to face a great picture. He/she is not thinking they are going to strike out. They are thinking about hitting the ball. They don’t sabotage their at-bat by purposely thinking of the worst outcome. Those thoughts come from outside.

Doubt Demons

I call these entities that produce negative thoughts, Doubt Demons. I have struggled with my Doubt Demons in the past. In the last couple of years, I have been able to remove most of them from my head. All except Harold. Harold is rooted pretty deep. He moved in early in my life and has made quite a home.

Like the old man living on Mount Saint Helens before the eruption, he isn’t leaving. Harold is the annoying roommate. He appears at the worst times and will not shut up. All my bad thoughts, fears, and self-doubts come from Harold.

Becoming Friends

Since it seems I can’t get rid of him, I have made friends with Harold. When he appears, I laugh at his efforts and send him back to his room. Because Harold’s only purpose is to keep me where I am, he has perfected his technique. What Harold doesn’t know is that I have a secret weapon.

Since I have grown spiritually, Harold’s old techniques don’t work anymore. He doesn’t hang around very long when he appears. If he did, he would be destroyed by my faith. Harold and faith cannot exist together.

Hit The Switch

Harold is darkness. To destroy darkness, one has to introduce light. Faith is light. Harold’s technique now is to appear for a microsecond. He appears; I have a brief feeling of doubt inside, and he is gone. That’s all it takes, a microsecond.

Jesus said, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you can move mountains. How much doubt does it take not to move a mountain? It would be a lot smaller than a mustard seed. Harold knows it only takes one quick thought of doubt to stop me from manifesting change in my life.

It is time for Harold, the King of Fear and Self-Doubt to go permanently. I continue my readings, research, and studies. As I grow spiritually, Harold will eventually have to pack up and move out. I will gladly help him pack his bags and do the duffel bag drag into oblivion. My faith will continue to grow until I become the person I am meant to be.